Branded Freedom?

I am free man. I fight for  freedom in personal life and also in the world. I was a victim of a dream of freedom that is not existing any more. Nowhere. Not in China and not in USA as well. It is just a tool to create what globalization traders demand. New markets and consumer customers.

Some years ago I saw on television how freedom was controlled in Romania in the time of Ceaucescu. He created a system of total control over people through webcam and street cameras. So now this is everywhere. In the hotels that showing every street corner. We say that is for our safety. But most of the time it is for safety of state establishment.

In my home I feel like a prisoner because I must have my electronic key to go around. Of course I know that every move is monitored. So they will create my living style and know when I need something. To sell me a dream of safety that I really don't need. To sell me the dream of personal freedom that I have with my personal electronic key.

But I don't wish to talk about it anymore... it is my freedom to choose... but that is just an illusion too. We humans are not free to choose and most of the things that we buy in liberty and freedom is just a cheap marketing freedom.

It is really easy to see if you think about it. Freedom is a selling brand that sells well globally. Of course it is a wish of mankind to live in peace and in freedom so globalization traders misused this basic human truth to expand the freedom on their terms. It is a trick. We people are willing to fight and die for freedom. We wish better future for our children, prosperity and good life. This is what unite people worldwide. So many people misuse that basic human wish to create a freedom for the interest of them.

I look into USA and I know that there is no freedom. They just like to talk about it and use the dream of freedom to establish the world of freedom on their terms.  If they behave like that they behave like tyrants. My friend from USA that I know very well said the truth in one line. "First, we start a business and if something goes wrong then we send the lawyers and then we send the army." He was right. Worldwide.

If you tell the truth you are an enemy of the state. So it is the same like one man that is in jail for his fight for freedom and democracy. He is a Nobel price winner. So he is fightinh for freedom again and he is in prison for the dream of freedom. On the other side some links show some embarrassing truth and the owner is hunted too. He became an enemy of the state. For same reason, I think I will vote for  him in next Nobel prize candidature.

So who is selling what? Everybody is, for branded freedom of mass consumption of goods, lusts and fears. Why? To be in charge of as....

Same Story... Same Players

I did not write for some time. I did not have much to say. Not much and most of it was not very meaningful. My friend from USA that I meet in the park almost every morning asked me what do I think about Korean conflict on Korean penincula. So I explained to him my view and how I saw the events.

In my opinion it is classical game and not even with new players. In this modern days people still think that progress can and is achievable by same old tricks like in the last century. Players are not even new and  the interests are just little different.

It is the cold war again. Betwen China and USA. Yes, the old Russian bear is back in the shape and wish to have his empire back. Friends from the old days are friends again. Russia did not forget who ruin them and why they fall. They seek for revenge match to reshape the power  again. Tirans are back, personally I think they were never gone.

China, Rusia and their friends share the same hate and interest on one side. Of course in tirany is no freedom. On the other side is USA with his puppet states and Europe. Russia knows that his expansion is not possible through Poland again so they change direction to Asia. Of course they wish to get more and more influence thorugh trade in Europe too. Power plays of them put  many people in cold   in many parts of Germany, France, Italy. Bears are used to minus 30 by nature. They sleep on their fat. Others need gas for heating.

Don't get me wrong. The other side is the same. USA and friends wish to have more control of China and their friends too. To destabilize them and win control over them.To be more powerful. Some people play with arms  and some children sleep in fear . North Korea is in hunger and the strength must be shown through missile and atomic threat to get food for their people and to feed the army. Winter is coming. They will get the oil and gas for heating from China and Rusia. But the food is a problem.

By the way they will destabilize one member of G20. Good. So they will obey the rising star of China in South East Asia. The message is clear and simple...if you don't obey, we will conquer you. Anybody who is on our way to success. With war, trade war or classical one. With false friendship, smiles and betrayal.

It is sad that they play with this already fragile planet. How much can this planet hold more? We ruined it already. Distabilize the energetic and magnetic fields. Much of  nature and animals are already a past time. Greediness and power plays will ruin us all. We are already on the bridge of collaps. So why? Because we learn only through big tragedies and only for some limited time. We are destructive species. We are Predators by nature.

Chinese symbol of prosperity is a Pig. Pig is an animal without control of eating. More and more. USA wish to maintain the power for their Eagle. Eagle feeds on many others. Bears are dangerous and fat. Unpredictable and strong. Who profits from this? Who raise like a shooting star....Arab continent. Now even the Queen with three old lions goes to borrow money.

The new power is on them. Of course the Eagle eat some enemies and fights for them. Eagle is fighting for them.. they feed him but they don't share the blood and death of soldiers. He fights for kings that know how to train the Eagle for centuries to serve them in the hunt for Rabbits.

Nothing is new.....history is funny thing, ups and downs. Queen and slaves animals of war games. Children in fear, families in cold and without bread.

Eagle is also already weak and old.  Pig will chew on his greed and have cardiac arrest and then the smallest pig will eat him to rise again. Eagle will die too in his height. He is intelligent animal that see many things from far, has good vision but is very clumsy on the floor. Bears sleep in the winter. Vulnerable and easy to attack. His home is big so it is not easy for him to pee on every corner to mark his territory. Rabbits are smart when the Eagle is on hunt, they hide and live one to be attacked. Then he fly away, the Rabbits come out and feed themself in the sunny grass.

It will be an epic battle betwen Pig and Eagle for world domination. Pig is very dangerous and destructive on earth and know where the Eagle has his eggs....on earth not in the sky. So for him it is easy to go there and eat the unborn ones, pigs are cannibalistic. Eagle knows that Pig is already too big and too heavy to attack from the sky so he must wait and prepare the sky army and the little animals under big Pig to monitore his heart and wait for his cardiac arrest...that he cannot survive and protect the little pinki small pigs that are such an easy target for Eagle to feed. Bear like to eat them too but for now he is not interested. He is still growing and not in his full power. But when the Eagle will not be a threat anymore the Bear will try to attack the Pig. Simple to survive and have the future that is created how they wish.

Sad that humanity is not learning and is not aware of the fact that humans are just one species and earth can live and survive without them. If we continue like this, we will create the fall of mankind. Our own armageddon. I do not think that there will be any incoming age of peace. It will be an incoming age of war and distruction, hunger and fear for mankind. Tragedies and fall of humans. The Earth will remain.

Gooodnes is very lonely and put on the side.....she is sad and without a voice. I remember my grandma, she was a victim of war in the last century three times. She sold everything including the gold for what...for some eggs, bread and cheese. For food....

Money does not have a state, human moral values or patriotism . Money moves quick... to the safe haven. In the second world war it was Switzerland.

It is us

I went to the house of God and I prayed. I like to pray as it relax my mind and I feel more healthy simply because I reduce my stress level. It has the same effect like you meditate, and praying is some kind of meditation.

I usually like to be on the same spot but I don't mind if it is occupied by someone else. It is still good that people come to pray. In this modern age I see that many are not concentrated in what there are doing. That is not good I think. I am quiet because I  like to feel peace that usually is in the house of God. I like to observe people. Many make me smile. It is the fact  that we human including me behave funny. I saw the other day one  man and he was praying by me. I noticed that he was very tense and full of stress. His breath was short and when he prayed, it was like shooting. Very quick and hard words. Like soldier commands. He played with his fingers. He was sharp and very tense. Like a pistol ready to shoot.

In this modern times people carry all kind of modern gadget into the house of God too. So every time something is buzzing or some strange sounds came out of their pockets or laptop bags. All around us is a sing of silence. That phone, games, guns and rollers are not allowed.

I saw him and he was playing with his phone. So I gave him a smile and asked, "What is more important than God?". He looked at me and put his phone on silence, but it was still connected. I learned much about human behavior and also about medicine so I can see some symptoms of illness. Humans in this modern time suffering from the same problems or from the same desires. Too much work and much of stress is very dangerous for every man around 40. Stress killed us. By high blood pressure and cardiac problems that are normality now. It is funny that something which is abnormal,  start to be treated like normality because it is so acute and daily doing. I personally don't like to see people suffering. I think most of us don't. I learned in my life that is not good to be passive. In Swiss this is so acute problem that they give a prize for courage and teach people to take action again. You don't need to go into the fight but at least you call a police if someone is beating a woman or a child or an old man on the street. You don't turn your head like it is not your problem. What if you are a victim tomorrow?

So I decided to talk to him. Of course outside the house of God. I stopped him and asked if I can advise him. He agreed so I told him that he is too stressed and he better check his heart and blood  pressure. That he may suffer of hypertension. He looked at me and said that it is true. That he is in enermous pressure because he must find some investors for his incoming project. Some big one. Lots of money is involved. I think he blocked himself and he blocked of course his creativity and in that kind of mind it is impossible to do what he wish to do.

I said to him that he should restructure his business model and give a part of his business away. So he will be a happier man. He just looked at me. And then he asked, "What about that contract? Will I get it?". I was surprised to hear it. I said to him ...no money is worth to die.

I was a little sad when we separated and go over ways. He is too focused on money to see. He went to the house of God to pray for his business success. Funny man. God is not a bank and is not interested in greed of mankind. I don't think that this man will listen to me and go to the doctor to check his health. He is too important man in the business world to listen to himself. To his truth.

Many says that I am naive. I think they are right in some ways but through this I become more as a human . I admit I don't know many things. So I ask. I am also funny in the eyes of someone sometimes. I think it is better to be naive than passive. Maybe the man has a friend who is a doctor and he will talk about some strange man that talk to him outside the house of God after praying.

The Fall of Empire

I look into the the history of time. Into the history of power. Into the creation of empires that came and fall. It is always the same method, the same tactic. Just time difference is new. So how is it done? How to create a new super power and create also fall of another. It cannot be two of course. The winner stands alone and everybody else are under him. Sometimes death or in modern times in opposition that is just waiting for a change to be in power. It is a repeating game. I don't know why it is so important to rule over others but it is so. We like to rule over others. It is a power play. To rule is very powerful desire of many. I personally don't like to rule over someone or something. So let us think how we shall do it.

First you need a land (it is useful that the land is not already yours). Then you see what is the condition of that land. Is it rich? Full of resources? Is it easy to reach? The best thing is to have the land of your neighbours so you will own one strong and connected unity. Then you start to think how to do it. It is called tactic. How much time you need, how many resources, money, force etc. To attack by invading them by force, with army. It is useful to kill some, not all because you need someone to work for your wealth of course, take their homes and the woman to secure that the future generations will not attack you. You put their son after you kill some, in your army by force and send them to die for you  in the new expansion of your Empire. Steal everything to secure your superiority and  get back your investment cost in gold. Much more of course. Public opinion in your land will love you.  It was done already in Roman time. Only the time now is different but the  basic tactic is still the same. Just little modifications. Not much difference. Just little technological advanced war games. Tanks, planes, bigger bombs and more fire power. All basic  military tactic in the military schools is still based on the Roman time. You will not believe how much.

In every land there is an opposition that is against the establishment. So it is very wise to use them to fight for you. You will not need so many army personal, money and time and the opponent will be thrown out of power by his own people. It is called revolution that is masterminded by some opposition actors and some neighboring land or super power that is interested in new change of power. Usually the new government is very grateful for let us say help. They become satellite states  without real power.

Today is modern to have trade war or currency war. Trade wars are also old. We don't need to look far  into the history. Just into the history of modern super power like USA. At the beginning they thrown some tea into the sea ( I like to see how history is repeating again) to start some tax dispute with British Empire. We see that super power states from last century are all in decline. Bit by bit. Of course they know that too so they start to play the manipulation power play again and wish to establish more and more satellite states to survive. But it is the rule of time...every Empire fall and is replaced by stronger one. Today we see some new power plays. Some new super power rise in the world. I think they learned how to do it and they are doing it very well. USA, British empire, French empire taught them how it is done and they get smarter. They are not so naive anymore.  African slaves didn't have better life for example. Empires didn't give them freedom or better life.

Economical wars....political wars.....diplomatic wars....For me war is war. Everybody knows that it usually starts by dispute over  money and land. Everything else is only the way how to achieve the needed result. Some rhetoric is also needed to fire up the soldiers. Like patriotism. Usually propaganda and well done actor plays do the rest of the  job. They throw some speeches, flags and well organized shows for public. The problem is that Empires, that are usually created by war and force need war and conflict to feed themself. It is their surviving tactic.

So it is needed to create constant expansion of power. To create new wars. Every ten to twenty years to survive and expand. Any kind of wars. Small or big ones. Classical wars, trade wars or diplomatic wars. We don't need to look so  far into the history. I just take a look on some states in the last century. If you think about it some superpowers of modern times had war all the time. The peace in between was just preparation to have a new one.

The USA in particular, the score is not very good because in most of the classical wars they lose. It is interesting that despite losses they rise. So war generated them. Russia too. Russia had one problem. It was a state of many nations. Many nations means...not much of unity and in time it became so week that the state fell apart. New satellite states were born. Now Russia is trying to get same old power back but it is over. China is in rising. Nothing new. They have inner bomb that will ruin them in time. It is called demography. What will they do with so many man in 20 years because they prefer sons? It is no problem. They will invade some neighbouring land, kill some, take their woman and make babies. To expand and survive. Roman tactic.

For rhetorical reason we will fight back with diplomacy, trade wars, start to create opposition to overcame the power and wish to be more and more involved in their state. Why? To destroy it.  But no one can beat the time and with time the change will come. That is the rule of Empire. They come and go, civilisations come and go. We humans usually bury  our sons, dads, grandfathers and other victims of war. Many civilians and sadly too many children. The rule of Rome...kill most of  man population including children because they will grow and be a threat to the Empire. War is cruel and horrible. It is just made more human ( no war is) because it is politically needed to secure the public opinion that support the war. Death works in silence. Death people don't talk. The truth is the truth of the winner. Who is weak in the time of war is defeated or death. Who is more rustles, more willing to destroy and more willing to kill, more radical is the winner.

War is not civilized doing. It is an act of power  that has his own rules. His own behavior. His own inner life. Soldiers know that very good. In wars, civilians obey the rule of war not the rule of freedom or democracy. Ave Cesar!

Goodness

Goodness in this modern times is annoying to most of the people. Why? Because goodness usually is asking for goodness in return and many people don't like it. They feel annoyed and react like..."don't bother me with this nonsense", "live me alone", "go away". Strange.

So now it is hard to find someone who is willing to take it and give me a smile? I don't need any reward for it. To give something ...that is good and from the heart of innocence... is already a reward. It is sad. Usually people start to avoid the goodness and sometimes I saw fear in their eyes. They are so afraid of  the truth. They do not know that to be honest to themself is the first step of self healing of their soul?

We create what we are. So we create over fears too. I think it is better to replace the fear with truth, goodness and love. But many do not share this anymore. Many peoples pray and go to the house of God but they don't live the way that is written in all of the holy books. They don't live according to that ethics any more. Ethic of goodness is forgotten. Sometimes I ask myself...are they blind? How can you be a bad person if you read God's books? Then I remember a story about hypocrite. They are many....they hide into religion. I see that not many people carry a God in their hearts. They just follow the traditional code that is given to them. There are so many scholars, professor's of religions, preachers all over. I listen to some but then I felt  disappointed because I don't see any light in them. It is only academical rhetoric and the personality of many of them is far away from the words that they are talking. Usually they are older people and they created the future that I am living it now. Then I look around the world? I don't see much tolerance, love and harmony between people, nations, states and nature. So I think that most of them are failed. We are suffering more and it looks like it will be ever lasting.

Goodness is very hard to spread because it is not modern. Much harder that evil. Why...because evil is usually covered by the illusion of pleasure and beauty. Humanity had lost her soul. In the dark days that is usually the case, we start to tolerate some things that was unthinkable before. We start to tolerate slavery, war, hunger, prostitution, child abuse, terror. We should not. We see that all the time in the news and we don't even think that something is definitely wrong in that. That this is abnormal behavior. A social problem, a disease that need to be treated. With tolerance, love and peace between us and in us. Humanity needs help. We also need help. We close our mind and hearts too strong. We replace much of  our humanity with economical and financial security. Sad. When we feel bad in us than we go and  ease our conscience with some donation or some social work. Or we go shopping. Shop shop until you drop....

So is the goodness alone in the desert of millions? No, she is not. I know that goodness will remain and always be here. Between us. It will not disappear. It is human nature to do right and be good.

Radical democracy

I wish to remind some people about forgotten things. About political marketing and redirecting the opinion voters to misleading pools and false truth. It is just a political marketing that is play on us. Thanks God some people are smarter and question the defenders of lies and are seeking for the truth.

I monitored the world true news, TV  stations and media. Like most of us. I can see the world in my living room.
Some games are always the some. Some power plays that have no real meaning if you just take a brake and think about it.
For example....today everybody are attacking the emigrants all over the Globe. The old fears are put in our mind again. Some things that should be just a part of the history are modern again. Some emigrant from Hungary that become more Frenchman that the Frenchman(that is usually the case for overpowered ego)
now is deporting some European citizens like in Nazi time. He was made when someone tell him the truth.
He defend him self and stud up for his country. But the truth is not the marginal people, who have no economical power ruin the world economy. No emigrants from Africa, Asia, Bulgaria did it. It was not them.
If  I remember well it was some bank expert, very educated one who put us in that position. So why are we attacking the marginal and poor people without any reel power? To redirect the public opinion and allow  the
elite politic, economic circles of power and of course some good lobbies to do what they do the bast, again.
Yes we are pure, without hope and work because of emigrants in world banks...about some experts in marketing with elite schools like Yale that fly in elite status to new land of economy. To suck it and destroy it and create some millions poor people that are in search for better life far away from home.
I have a good idea maybe it will be good to tell all of the world emigrants to stop contributing to reach ones.
I would like to see some elite banker scrubbing the canalisation and work in some dirty and dangerous  of course low paid job that only the one who has nothing is doing it? So all the emigrants from all over, move.
Make an exodus. You would collapse the world economy in deed....Imagine all of you Mexican, Latinos, Turks, African, Chinese,  Indonesian,....you are so many if you move the states that you are in will beg you to stay or  send an army  after you like Pharaoh in the Old testimony who wished  to stop the second or third grade citizens. Who is making the money on you?The elite ones. I saw that we demolish the Berlin wall bat some people in my own country are having it built in their mind again and is 20 meters height. In the joke they say the truth,lets us build the wall in Turkey or Greece? It is sad and very disturbing idea of the same people that establish their freedom not even 20 years ago and many also died for it . Now we act like defenders of Europa. We are the stronghold.
Someone wish to sell us the fear again and manipulate the way of their power?
Little Napoleon you are politically death in some years any way so why should we listen to you? Or to Italian Gigolo. You are forgotten.Australia a land of emigrant that come and first make a genocide is now making the new extreme low? But I wish to ask ....who are you?  I have a good idea to...so Aboriginal People go to Hague and demand your land back...it belongs to you, not to some emigrants.
That goes  for USA too. But let us stop playing the games of fears and stupidity.
It was the economy that clash with elite establishment and they are the guilty ones. Not some Gipsy's transported to Romania. Who demolish the world and why. People of the world for geed .They took it from the word,  from Africa for centuries, India for centuries, Latin America for centuries...who ruin societies of so many nations if not the elite of power, globalisation traders, politician of corrupt and unworthy companies?
Who pay the price....Cristian in Roman time were given to the lions,
Spanish inquisitors killed some Native Americans, primitive tribes in US pay the price.In sad days of  German history , German, Jews and Gypsies paid the price and  now some people who flee from dismantled countries  that are rich in oil and diamond, gold, resources etc for elite banks or corporation traders. With some war problems and hunger of course.


Some tee party in USA.I was thinking that was against British rule now it will endanger the chocolate president.I  don't wish to be racist. Also an emigrant, that I like. Just face it we humans are all emigrants. We come to life like baby's and then we emigrate after let us say 90 years. All of us. So please stop this nonsense and let us work together for this in reality really short time of our human existence.
We like to say that we like peace and democracy. Freedom of expression and same values to all.



So I wish to say it again....look into the right direction, make the people who are responsible for that mess we are living it now be more responsible or replace them bay just simple vote. It is democratic. Power of elite likes the Status Que. So for them this is a little radical. But they don't think about you when they live in elite money power status. So let us play some democratic radicalism. Let us bee smart political emigrants of the planet. Battle for the Pole is already lost.... Inuits will pay the price... so who is next on the list? Me?

Canada or Alaska

My friend contact me. She was surprised that I live so far away from my home. That I wrote a book and published it in USA...that I live now in Jakarta. So many things to ask and so many questions...some people wish to be my friends online...more and more. I personally think that we human are connected anyway by humanity so I don't mind.

Her passion is photography. I must say she is good. In her photos I see beauty.  Much beauty...wide open space. Freedom. In her photos are no humans. No children, no people. I think she wish to run away from her life...she is searching for freedom. Air, beauty and open sky. Many people are in search for a freedom.

Who is searching for a freedom is not free. Usually they are trapped in their life. She likes to see wolfs and birds and bears. Free, strong independent animals. She is not. She cannot face her father....in reality she is a little mouse who is afraid of her shadow when he is in charge. Her father is egoistic, selfcentred and authoritarian man, that emotionally abuse her mother and her. There is no one but just him. His success, his material independent make many depend on him.

I think she hates him. It is hard to tell this but she can correct me if I am not right. I will be happy if not. There is also no love, no man in her life. How?  She doesn't wish to be abused, so she doesn't wish to be involved with a man. Her perception of love, relationship, sex and harmony beetwen man and woman is let us say gently because I don't wish to hurt her....incorrect.

I know that she will be mad and furious about my article. She must defend herself of course. To be safe. I understand it. She will explode like a vulcano. She is strong, independent, free. She is a bear, wolf...Many people react the same.....who wish to see the truth of themself. I was many times in denial too. But deep inside I know  the truth. I fight with anything, I had to prove them wrong. She will do the same. I know...

Maybe I will lose a friend too. I will be sad if that happen because I don't need friends that cannot tell the truth abouth me... also to me. Who needs that kind of friends...no one. We have many friends in modern time. Many request for friendship online...more and more. Sad thing is how can I be a good and reliable friend that know when someone is in need or hurt if I am a friend online. We need relationships to be a good friends. I think this modern time take away the real friendship and replace it with numbers. I cannot be connected by technology. I must and wish to be connected with my heart, love, worries... sad and happy moments that I share with a person.

I hope that we will meet and then she will put her fire on me...so what? It is normal. But I know her well...she will cry inside like for so many years....and then she will go again to search for a freedom into the world. To climb the biggest mountain...to shot the most beautiful photos. In search for light....

I hope she will stop one day and search for her freedom inside. Many don't....sadly. She is a woman, free...who am I to tell her how she must live...I am not her father she would tell. I will be quiet and sad because I know...who is searching for the freedom is not free....

After a while she will send me some new photos from Canada or Alaska...

Zakaria asked Miriam

Today I talked to a friend. He runs a small restaurant. He said that his workers steal from the restaurant. I listened and asked where the money for this business come from. He didn't say directly but between the words I heard that his boss is not an honourable man. I was laughing inside...how can he expected something that is stolen can attract decent honest people. Usually it attracks stealers too.

But this is not the topic that I am thinking about for some time now. I am thinking about a woman. Her role in humanity, history and why is the position of the woman still so difficult all over the world. I read many things and stories  about woman are usually very beautiful, full of knowledge and wisdom. For example Maya, mama of Budha and Miriam, mama of Jesus, in this special stories fathers are not mentioned much. They are just side actors.

Sometimes I asked myself are we man just a sperm donors? Maybe. And why man are so afraid of woman that woman must be controlled at all times by the man? They said that God created man first and then the woman...so I think that the woman is simply more advanced human being, because God probably improved some things at his second creation....or not?

In my humble opinion woman must be suppressed by the man because of his fear. It is unjust. In my opinion woman does not need a man...she is pure and always connected with goodness and beauty, with good guidence and  love from God. Why? Because she can give life. We man don't. She can decide about life. We man don't. For that reason she is more connected with miracle of life. She is in direct link to the creation of God. To us, to the souls of unborn babies, to the future.

They are just more powerful than man. Man is just a side actor. But he doesn't wish to be...so he created the society of man based on, usually force. To protect himself...his way of life. He is in reality, inferior in life but his power must be protected at any cost. Usually on the cost of the woman and children.

In my society there are more and more single woman, more and more single mamas..I think that is good. Humanity don't need side actor any more.... I am a man and I know many will be angry about this work of mine. Especially man...woman will just read it  and smile in her knowledge of life...that we man don't have a door in anymore for so long. Why? Because we created a society of man that is not the society of love, knowledge and children like woman do. So we are not invited into the house of the woman anymore..

There is one story in a very old book. Zakaria asked Miriam..."Where did you get all the clothes and food?" She just looked at him and said, "From God.... if he wish to give then  he can give without problems...." But to whom? To the woman. We man, and Zakaria had to struggle to be worthy of God's blessing.

Many will argue that Eve seduced Adam. I don't think so. No one can seduce anyone without his approval. And if it was meant to be? Eve just did what was needed to be done. So how deep is your fall oh Adam??? You fall the test and woman is punished? For centuries....because it was your fault? So how deep is your fall oh Adam that woman is still suffering. I think she just did what was meant to be and it was  a part of God's plan to test you oh Adam..

I am a man, so in a way I am connected with all the man that lived before me and if the story is correct, I am connected with Adam too..I am carrying your fault and I don't wish to be part of it anymore...I don't wish to be a part of this modern man, ignorant, selfcentred, superpower ego...who see just him and his wishes and lust....and teach the woman to be the same. If she  wish to survive in the man's society, she must be a man. So she is more and more a man and we man, fear that kind of woman too. The one who plays the game like a man and of course, she is winning....she is dominating the man's world. The biggest fear of all for a man...Will the man loose his beloved society of man?...Of course..he is more and more just a side actor...so for that reason his blindness and fear that generate so much injustice to the woman is more and more strong....So how deep is your fall oh Adam??? What kind of love is that oh Adam? To the woman and God that give you SHE? To lead you...

Destiny

Today I am happy.  Today my  project starts. It is a birth that I have waited almost two years. Today is the day that will reshape my whole life. I cannot stop it and I also don't wish to. I was thinking about this moment for many months, days and years. Big battles were fight.

And now is here. I think about my past. What all I have done to achieve this. The time will show if it is good or not. I hope for the best. I am happy that it is over. That I achieve it. It was not and never easy. I had to fight hard against myself to believe in me. Against society,  family. Many battles, small and big ones. Like life is.

My wife helped me much and without her I will not make it. So I am very grateful for the love and passion that she gave me. I like her simple truth. Don't  worry...God can open many hearts... It is your destiny to do it...I know. I know that well. My destiny...I follow it. It is not an easy way.

To follow the inner truth and light is very lonesome way. It is definitely not something for weak people. Many times it is also scarry and dark way. It is the only way...that way, so I cannot back away or flee from my own destiny. I must go through it. It is so simple truth. It is not easy to trust the uncertainty. It is against any logical concept. To trust your heart and God is not the way we were taught in school. It is not modern and is sadly forgotten. We live based on logical concepts of modern science. Not on some illogical things that cannot be proven in laboratories.

I also know why is it so...because we are afraid. We don't have knowledge anymore about inner truth of us. It is forgotten....the real purposes of life. I know that we human are born every single day. That babies have their destiny. It is normal and a fact of life. Many will be blessed with many talents that I cannot even imagine. They will see and feel the life in our future.

Babies are the proof that there is something more in us....a soul. They come into the world....to learn. Like I was...or you or my wife? We never think about it much. We are too busy with other important things, like job, security, states. I know that I am much more than just biological truth of DNA. I have  personality...unique one. Like everybody of us. Genius will be born, musician, artist...They always come into the world...

Destiny...it is the word that we like to use, especialy if we don't understand. We don't understand so many things. I use another word. God. It is still here..... In us and around us.

Superiority

It was beautiful morning and I decided to go to my yoga class. Me and my wife are in this little class full with different people. It was hard for us to start...it takes time to learn. This concept that you don't need force and you just hear your body and your move will follow, it is something revolutionary for me. We boys are taught to force and pain from early childhood. We boys don't cry and  hide emotions.Of course this is a lie. Big one.

I am thinking about this concept and it is true. Our body follows our breath all the time. We live based on this natural way but in time we forgot it because it is so basic truth. In this modern days that rely mostly on mind and thinking, it is funny that we must teach ourself what is natural in us.

It takes time and it is not so easy....It was not easy for me to walk or go to a toilet when I was small. I didn't sit on the toilet for 3 years...my mother had to teach me with sitting on the little plastic toilet. We boys are also little late to walk. I learn it when I was 2 years old. To tie my shoes it takes me 4 years more. It is normal. I read at the age of 6. Slowly word for word. My mother buy me a book. Fairytale book with many pictures. Today I know that it was short, only seven pages....

In this class...class is usually place to learn, we are from all over the world, many colors and ages. From age 20 to 70. The teacher is a woman. She is very good...but she is doing this probably many years and teach herself to the level that she can teach others. For example me. I like to go because it is good for me...every day I discover something new, something that I didn't know before. Slowly  but constantly I improve. I think we all do.

Today we had one new pupil. I was happy to see that someone new wish to learn...woman around twenties. For me it is really difficult to guess the age. My wife looks like 23 maybe 25 but she is 41. It is genetic. She is Asian and they age differently. She will be a little mad because I mentioned her age but with that look she doesn't have any problems to hide her age.This with the age is also funny. We can't hide it but we are trying...

We started little warming up. Some coordination moves. This new pupil was good. She followed easily. I noticed that she is bored and a little unpatient. Then we started somethings that are a little complicated. So she loose contact. That is not a problem...you do what you can at the start. No one expect from you to know everything. Then she walked out. She loose interest. Just like that. We continued. Yoga allows us or even demands that we don't force ourselves. Everybody are unique and know what is his or her limit...our body tell us.

Later after we finished I start to think about her. What was wrong?.....Then I clicked. She is superior. She act, walk and behave like she is superior. She gave that impression to the rest of us. I think she was brought up in that way. Let's face it, no one is superior. It is just knowledge that make us different. For example, I don't have a driving licence. I never learn that. My interests are different. But it is probably hard for someone who is taught to be superior. That his land, or state or army is superior. That his field of work is designed for him. That everything he or she think is pre-designed to achieve the needed result. If you live like that you loose your innocence. You become superior also in the way you think.

It is like in the military. The trainer drill you to be, think and act like superior human. Why??? Not because you are, we as a human are limited. We cannot live without water for example. Why??? Because that will create a better ending result....sometimes. Superior thinking is very dangerous thinking. It is always manipulated to achieve needed plans of state, armies, companies....

If you noticed superior people don't like to learn for fun. It has to have a purpose. They are superior in their thinking. It is logical concept of their mind. Next step is social. Superior needs inferior. To maintain their superiority. Superiority must be shown. Must be admired and needs followers.

So this is a twist. It is a lie. In fact, every superiority is compensation of inferiority in your thinking. For that reason she walked out. I was happy to see her...just that. Nothing else. For me she looked nice. Even beautiful. I hope that she will come again so I will tell her. She will feel better. Human must support each other. I needed three years to sit on the toilet. I was encouraged by many peoples. I still remember my first successful time. My mother was so happy for me. I was rewarded with smile, hug and kiss. Later with a piece of cake....It was total success. I learned it. Am I superior? No.... 

Giving Up Point

I read a book today and I am fascinated by the meaning of acomodador or giving up point. According to this knowledge, there is always an event in our lives that is responsible for us failing to progress. So I ask myself where it was the acomodador in my life. Where it was? I must make my own introspective and go into myself to be like shaman....to find my own acomodador. To release my own creation and free myself.

I asked myself many times why we settle for second or third best. For second best love. For second best marriage, second best job. Acomodador. I must say I change. I am not an acomodador any more. It was and still is hard work. To trust myself, my own jugment. My life and my experience.

It is very lonely way. Very dangerous way too, because I meet so many acomodadors. The hobby of them is to create another one. I call that kind of people...wingsbreaker. They decided not to fly so they wish and think that is also good for everybody.

We like to create idols, superstars. We don't like to be one of them. It is someone else that we like to personalize with. In a dream of fame, success, glory that we didn't achieve. Most of the  people fear succsess, they will do everything to destroy it. They wish it, yes, but they will destroy themselves or others just before it happens. Why?...Because they know how to live with failure, it is well known surroundings. With known situations, with known emotional responses. They don't know how to live with success. To step up into a new stage of life is always a challenge.

In my life, I was the little one, bullied by bigger boys. I was an acomodador to myself because of fear, growing up problems, ideological and intellectual disputes, social norms..etc. I needed many years to create myself, my life. To understand me, my emotional failures and my mistakes. I correct many things and I become a better person. One who is not wingsbreaker. I try to encourage people to reach for their wings. I try to tell them that the darkest hour is always before the dawn. Don't look at me as an idol . Be one to yourself.

Many people who inspired me...I talk of them like the good ones...are just my inspiration for my own growing. It is like a story about young birds in the nest. They don't know that they can fly. No one tell them. So one day they try. Flying is natural...they must just let themselves go....

Post Power Syndrome

Sometimes I meet people especially older people that like to talk about their achievements in their life. What they created, what were they. How successful...they talk and talk...they need a listener or maybe admirer? I don't know.  I listened to them expecting that we will have some kind of dialogue. But it is usually monologue. Somehow the conversation is not balance. Then I think about it and came to one possible solution....it is post power syndrome.

Many people don't even know what post power syndrome is, so I will try to explain it in a simple story. One man  is very successful in his field of work, top executive or a general if  you like. He is admired and everybody were part of his success. His command must be accepted, his solution and his thinking is appreciated and always needed. So his personality in time is reshaped and his ego is growing and growing like a greedy, super egoistic state. His personality changes and he feels like a super hero. He is the man on the top..the winner who stands alone. The bodies on the way to the top are just collateral damage.

This kind of man or woman are everywhere. Respected but also many times feared by peoples. Then one day they are replaced by another one. Someone's better, more superior, more beautiful, younger. Replaced by new generation of super egoistic people. That can go for a state too, of course. New player on the stage of power. Sometimes we meet that kind of people in our daily life. They wish to be seen and appreciated. Nothing is wrong with that. I think that most of the people in the world like to be treated that way.

They talk nonstop about themselves, command people, and rude in conversation. They never have dialogue...usually monologue. They act like they know everything. The truth of them is the right truth...nothing else. How dare I question them? Their opinions?

I don't know who they are or who they were. I usually also gave my opinion...my view or things in a dialogue. Then they are mad and tell  that I don't know nothing, that I am young...inexperience. They usually overreacted...change the conversation in the moment, maybe because they don't like to hear? Start to ignore me. That is typical response from them. Maybe they don't see the truth of them. They are in pension, old, with many health problems that comes with the age. Sucked away by another super hero...pushed aside because of age or some power play that they become victim now?

I am sorry for them...their life is illusion...they live in the past time...with memories of power and success. But they still act and behave like that? Then I talk to my wife about this thing and she said the simple truth..."It is post power syndrome like my papa had...he needed many years to understand that he is now in pension. That he doesn't  have the power to command people and no one salute him anymore. He accepted the truth of him...it was hard inner battle but he learned. Many people don't. You know you are funny too....how can you expect that super egoistic people or a state can see someone else? They see only themselves and everybody else are just a tool for their success."

I am glad to have her...she is so smart. I am still very naive. It is time for me to learn...

Modern Business, Modern Slavery?

I am a Democrat. Maybe even a Social Democrat. I was raised in belief that slavery is abandoned. That slavery is the thing from the past. But recently it is seen and also felt on my own skin that is modern like the  latest fashion design. It is just packed in the different rhetorical form.

I sometimes think that something is wrong with me. More I think about it more I am sure that nothing is wrong with me. I will tell you a story...

I know a girl, her educational level is marvelous. She is always learning...like we all do in reality. She is really a top woman, like we like to say in this modern times. Personally I am happy that I am her friend. I must say... I didn't know that kind of people exist. She is rare like goodness in this modern days. Her brain is beautiful and her personality too. She is human like you and me and her intellectual level is beautiful too. My brain and her brain is the same. We humans are intelligent. Me, you, and her. We share the same biological superiority that  make us human.  That is what I know and really believe in. Let's be honest to ourself...it is true.

I know also that fighting against injustice is basic human behavior. It starts from childhood when someone wish to take our candy on the playground. We all like to share..if I have two chocolate candies I will give her one. I believe that you will do the same. I am sad that you don't know her. I know that you are sad for me too, for someone you know too. I thank you for that human goodness. Some days ago she went for job interview. They like her CV, her working skills and her experience on that rare special field that she has. Everything went well and then the question about her salary was on the agenda. They wish to give her some pocket money that is not even worth to mention in this article. She refused...

I didn't understand. Then she explained to me.."I am Asian. I thank you that you think that all  humans are the same. I personally think that you are right. That my brain is the same as anybodies in the world. That engineer from India, or Africa should have the same pay for the same job. That no one in your country works for that kind of slavery payment on the same business field."

I was sad. I know exactly how the modern times are. I am a part of it too. I fell it on my skin too. That we humans become just economical slaves. That everything is business, cutting cost...but at the end of this rhetorical words are always people. The system is integrated and implemented all over the world. Same thing...much work, big responsibilities. Overtimes. When our personal life goes in flame..it is a moment for promotion. Low pay? Big sacrifices.

I think that this crisis is also a nice manipulation game. It is always the same. Someone's misfortune is another man's fortune. If the crisis didn't happened like she did, based on greed and low pay and cutting cost, someone will invent it...

I was sad but then I said to her..."Don't worry. It is like a story of a man who wish to buy super advanced dream car, a diamond like Maserati...with some pocket money. He can only buy a photo sticker..not even that." She laughed loudly and said....thank you.

I like to be human, we fight injustice. It is implanted in us. If you allow me, I wish to give you one simple advice....fight with intelligence, don't allow anybody to enslave you for the profit of them. Not you, your land, or your resources...be wise.

Patriot

Yesterday a friend of mine send me an email, with some disturbing news about my little land. He explained to me the political situation and he said, "Please write something about this...people are listening to you." I read the news and I was sad. My little land pay the price again. Nothing new...if you are small like us, some stronger boys always take advantage on you....

My little land is now part of new union. This union is not build on liberty, fraternity and equality. It is simply economical union. Well controlled productive machine, force to balance against USA, Asia and of course China.

So some bigger boys decided to build some gas line project from Russia to Italy over our little land with some industrial areas too. It is already done deal but the trick is that in democratic lands you must tell the truth, but just the truth that is needed to get what you wish to do anyway. Just to inform the people what is already decided. To avoid the unpleasant questions and blind the truth, you redirect the blame to someone else, in this case our neighbour's land. That is politically wise. You stay on power and of course balance political consent. Throw the bone to the people....

So now everybody are mad about our neighbour, we bullied them. I said to him...wake up...they are just victim too. They are small too. There is no  more my land, no more my river, no more stones for your art work that is so beautiful and full of harmony...There is no more land of our neighbours too, no more rivers of them too, no more resources. Wake up. Now there are just projects of "progress and prosperity". Please don't be such a "patriot". Don't be a patriot in a house of lies. Patriots are usually shot first... 

I am sad . My land is giving some unworthy  people the richness and wealth. I am also sad for all other little lands, or lands that are just some projects too. I know that someone was paid well in my little land or in your land and they will have profitable annual balance sheet.

I am sad because I remember Iceland's Prime Minister...he invented new political term...economical terrorism. They were bullied too by the bigger stronger boys. We people give them the opportunity and resources to be wealthier and richer. On our home that is called Earth.  I ask myself sometimes where are they living? On Mars? They are already buying  future resources there too...for some Mars projects...

So are they living on Mars?

Grandfather's Fear

I walk every morning in my little park just to relax my mind and get some fresh air. I see also some tenants do the same. Usually the same people walk around every morning and the same children are on the playground.

Sometimes I talk with them, sometimes they just say hello.  I don't talk about my work but somehow they knew that I am a writer. If you are an author like I am it is normal that everybody start to talk about  their life and their worries, so stories fly in like jets. I understood..everybody carry a story. I like to listen  because they teach me so many new things that I can also use in my work. I like to share too. They also ask me many questions. To hear my opinion.  Sometimes I don't know what to say too.

Once some older man asked me..."Do you know anything about death and afterlife?" I said, "Yes, I know much about death. I read many things about death and afterlife. Many books are written and some scholars like Tibetan priests know much about it too. I came to personal conclusion that death is not something scary....It is just normal. If I am born I will die too." That I understand his fear, because humans are afraid of something that they don't understand, especially something that is unknown. So we must learn and teach ourself to understand it.

Then he said..."Yes, death is a mystical, hard to understand..."  I look at him and continued. For me death is not mystical and you will understand it when you die. He asked, "What do you mean?"

"Please try to understand, mystical is only something that people don't understand. But you will understand it when you die. You as a person are unique, your life is unique, everything is designed for you as an individual, you have unique DNA, so according to that, it is my opinion that you will have unique death designed only for you. Like your life and everything that you do is unique. It is normal that no one can understand it. They are not you."

He was quiet for a while. Then he said... "I think you are right.." So we walked to the playground. Then one child came to us. It was his grandchild. I said, "Don't worry, everything will be allright. Children are the proof that God did not forget us." He smiled at me...

He went slowly to his home, holding his grandchild's hand. I watched them. I understand. The time of his last journey is approaching and he knows it...."Don't worry my friend, I will pray for you to give you love and guidance...like I did it for my grandma many many years ago." She died in her bed, peacefully over night. In her sleep....without fear. She prayed before she  fall into sleep, like I heard her so many times when I was small. She went.

American Chinese

I like to talk to people, hear people. They always teach me something. My wife likes to say that I am talkative that I should listen and be quiet more. She is right. Many times. We have democracy in our relationship. I don't have the last word if we debate something..and if I would have it,  I  would say.... "Yes, Dear."

Many times I heard some opinions about this and that. What is going on in the world. Many pros and contras. Especially about politics. Who is right and who is wrong. For me everyone has the right to share their opinion. I am a democrat. In my personal life too. If we have a problem, we sit down, we put our problem on the table and try to come to the best solution that is acceptable for both parties. We do this many times...According to my experience, sometimes you don't have good choice. It is also normal. So between two choices that are bad, I like to take the one which  create less damage.

Many people are not like this..they take a side and stand there stubborn like a donkey. Stay and don't move. His right is the right one. That's it. They don't even give you a chance to ask what they are mad about. They walk out of the debate in protest, mad and angry because they didn't achieve what they wanted. For me that is egoistic. Self centred.....

The other day I listened to one pro and contra...the topic was very interesting. Many important peoples were sitting in the same room. Three to the left and three to the right. I was quiet and  listened....I try to be better also. The topic was about foreign policy. Bernard-Henri Levy was also one of the guests. I heard about him, famous philosopher, author of many books, they said one of the 30 most influenced men on the Earth, philosopher of the year 2010. I was honored just to see him. Brilliant mind, journalist and philosoper. I think he  doesn't have time for lies and deceit. For games over power. So he told his opinion, his truth. Truth is something that many peoples don't like to hear. He said that the president of  USA is American Chinese according to the tactics he used in his foreign policies. Everyone was quiet...

He said that he uses the basic tactic of  Sun Tzu, Chinese philosopher that lived in 6th century BC. Brilliant mind author of one famous book. He studied the  art of war. If you don't have a chance to defeat an enemy....become a friend. If you expand your forces too much, you will loose. Use your resources wisely......Everyone was quiet and after seven minutes his speech was over. I must admit it was brilliant.....

On the other side of the table it was a revolution, polite but still seen able. Some hard minded egos wished to get even. So they took a very un-democratic approach. They went to the personal level of him. They attacked him. That he is intelligent and they honored him,  but he loose time speaking  about some Chinese man who lived many centuries ago.

I didn't believe what I heard. So they don't honor the history that teach us so much? They don't honor, for example, the founders of human ethics, Aristotle, Phytagoras? Great men who lived before them? The founders of the State of them? Good President like George Washington...because he lived and died some centuries ago? Is that  now just a story about some American Patriot that we don't need to waste our time in this modern times?

History proved us that we all .... will be history ...in time. Personally too...I have good memories of my grandma. She died. She became a story to tell to my children. She was very good grandma for me.

I personally like the President of their land now. He is much better then the one before....I am in worries for him...I would like to tell my grandchildren that he was one of the good ones...who bring peace and prosperity to many peoples. But how to achieve that with some stubborn donkeys??

Little land of mine

I come from one little land...it is so little that most of the peoples in the world don't know where it is. They never hear about it. If I tell them, they usually pretend to know where it is. So I explain to them..that we are little, not many peoples...only two millions all together with all our foreigners. That we live good...that we like to drink and eat good so we don't export much...we don't have much interest to give everything that is good away from us. This concept confuse many peoples. How they don't want to earn more money, more power.

This more,more, and more is not good for us. We like to live in peace, eat well, drink well and walk around through our small land. To see the Alps, mountains, rivers with clean water and lakes. We have rich resources of wine not oil...you can not drink oil..everybody produce wine in my country. It is our national hobby. No one know... because we drink our best wine by our self. We give only to the Pope, sometimes. Our first sport is fishing ...then climbing and skiing.

Yes we have hotels and everything....but we don't like to promote much about our SPA from Roman time, sea, beauty of our nature because too many will come to see it...and humans are the biggest polluters. We don't have much space anyway. So where to put let say 5,000,000 tourists ? We are a nation who like to make intelligent jokes so I will tell you one...

There was a family from USA and they wish to visit us for two, three days...we said no problem, our hospitality is well known...but what would you do in the next two days? We are one of the most educated nations in the world....we have everything. Little fairytale land. Who visit us, will always come back...from all over. More and more..they even buy little cottage houses on the little hills..and  then the neighbours teach them how to eat good, drink good wine...enjoy the sun...with a view to our lakes and mountains.

We protect our nature and woods already 300 years...way before GO GREEN become modern. Of course we know it is just a good selling brand. We like BIO food for centuries....good one. Nice cooked. If someone has some little health problem, we do like Caesar did...we go to spa. It is still the same spa. Many...

We have also some special horses. Horses are born brown and in time they become white. We are smart...we don't give our horses away. Our Prime Minister give only the photo and the birth certificate of the horse to one Arab leader and  also to Queen of ENGLAND....They stay home, our horses.... of course. We have for example too many bears...so we sell them. The bears are very intelligent animal. They go home. I will show you how beautiful we are....Please take your laptop, log on to the internet...and type in SOCA RIVER. We are a proud nation, we are friendly to everybody...but we are small.  So please...don't come to visit us.... :-)
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My Old Televison

Today it was a rainy day so I switched my old television to just take a quick look on today news. It is always the some....just tragedies are sold good and human fears. Like we humans don't have any happy moment on daily news anymore. For me it is sad to see wars, catastrophe of oil leak, talking about money power over power...As long I remember it is that way. Just different faces....

So I come to an idea...we should make a TV broadcast about happy moments and happy things in life. How many happy fathers and mamas are today? How many jobs were created...good ones not economical slavery for low or no pay...How many trees were planted, enemies become brothers, new inventions that make our life easier...beautiful clean balance technology for all mankind...good things about us humans. Not that I say we should blind our mind about other side...we should balance. Through balance we will be more open for changes more open minded...

Some don't like my stories...good. We must know what we don't like to see and decide what we like. I like human goodness. It is my personal decision and I always find it...in many things. I know goodness is lonely...goodness is not a BIG seller, like fear is.

Today fear is the biggest seller, security fear, emotional fear, health fear....many people use this basic human emotion and sell it with enermous success....we have pharmaceutic companies, anti aging pills etc...but let be honest to our self .. It is no such thing like anti aging...because everyone of us know exactly how many years we have. If we lie to our self...that is still a lie and deep inside we know. Our body can not be 20 if it is 30 or 40. My DNA knows it, if I wish or not.

I switched off my television...broadcasters, marketing managers, advertising companies...will not be happy...so what? When they start to give me TV of goodness, I will PAY it...I promise and they will be happy too. Don't you think???

I think my old television was happy too...imagine if our television have a soul and she must see this day by day. Year by year...she will be old and unhappy....

Phenomena Called Soccer

I am a man that likes soccer...yes many girls like it too, but more because of handsome man on the field...it is a joke..don't be offended. I know that we have also a good woman league and they play hard ball... This sport is considered like a religion...In Britain, Italy, Spain...I am not so extreme but I like to see it. I don't play much...I am more of a thinker...analyst.

I remember it was Sunday evening around 3 p.m....sunny day, but everybody were in. Town was deserted. The match was on....me, my brother and of course papa were watching the game. Concentrated...mama was happy because we were on one spot (on the sofa) and quiet. We score a goal and simultaneously we jumped up and said, "GOOAAL!"

Than we jumped back on the sofa and we heard some strange CRACK sound... Sofa didn't make it...ha,ha,ha.

We won and mama liked the color of the new sofa too....

According to this I have many brothers of game all over the world....we can talk about this game

everywhere..It is true. We real fans like the game so much that we applaud to the nice goal or an action of opposite team too. Yes we are mad, sad...but we honor the game. Sadly many times is not like this. I went to a derby mach in the land that I am living now. Derby is a derby...everywhere. But I was very disappointed. The fans that were wining were evil. I didn't believe what I saw. Real human evil...worse kind. They enjoy to underestimate the opponent. Like other team's misery is their sadistic joy.

I went out after a first half....sorry my brothers in game all over the world...I know that is not how my tradition of game teach me.... you stick to your boys through storm and thunder..

It is a matter of integrity inner code of game...It is true. I know....

But it was simply too much. Integrity is also to stand up and make an action when it is simply too much. Then we don't go to the match, we suffer at home...I know. Stadium is empty....they can play ..but without us.

I know much about match and it was not fair match.....we fans know about injustice. They can say what they like but we live for the match and we know how it feels to be cheated. We all experience that...it is the ugliest feeling. You see the truth and they wish to question your mind, your eyes. We swallowed much we fans....we go to this game again and again. See unworthy things that has nothing to do with the match... Don't insult our intelligence.

Maradona you know it was not A TOUCH OF GOD..it was your hand...Ireland fans know it too...It was a hand...I am really sorry for them I know how much that hurts.

But God is just..every fans know that too.

My little land will go to AFRICA....we kicked out the BIG RUSSIAN BEAR....they totally underestimate us. They said that we will be crashed like a mosquito. We won and next day JOKE WAS BORN.....ALWAYS SOME GOOD JOKES ABOUT SOCCER...EVERYWHERE... Bear get malaria...ha,ha,ha.

God is just my brothers in game...Irish know that too...and France is in trouble...

Stereotype I am carrying

We humans are funny creatures, don't you think? We sometimes assume something that is not true but it is true to us. Because when our eyes see something that we don't understand, our brain will immediately search in our database for information that is inside us to try to understand what is going on. Sometimes because of that misinterpretation, many funny stories happened. To you, to me, to everyone. But if you are different like I am...it happens more often.

I don't have for example the right skin color. I am Caucasian and my wife is Asian. So sometimes it is really funny....it is not racism. No, really not. Sometimes people don't know and they just assume to know. It happens to me too. To everyone I think. It depends on our knowledge....it is good that we teach our self and others all the time.

Yesterday we went out for a dinner. I dressed myself nice. My wife too and we were happy and cheerful. Chitchatting...holding hands. Like we always do. We went out from the building and one security man looked on to see us. He was happy to see what he saw. Two people in love. Happiness is contagious and he wished to be part of it. He said hello with really big smile and openhearted.

He was talking some strange language that I don't understand a thing. I look at him didn't wish to be impolite, so I take his hand and shake it. He chitchat something...but I didn't understand. So my wife said to him....sorry my husband don't speak Arabic. He is not Arab. Then I tell him in his language that I am Slovene. I saw in his eyes that he was confused. In his mind perception, our picture looked like Arabian man marry Asian woman. I know what happened to him. He saw so many, so he was automatically assumed that we are one too. So we went.

Two hours later we came back. I greet another security boy with a gesture to show respect to him. I touch my heart with my right hand and bend my had just a little. He gave me worry look, apologize to us and asked my wife if something is wrong with my heart, if I have a heart disease. Because many times I do like this to him. My wife started to laugh. Loudly and then she said, "No it is the way he honor you." Then he said some even more funny. He looked at me with that big smile and said...."You did it like my grandpa and my papa. I forgot it. That's the way people did in the past." Then I was laughing too....he knew but he forgot it.

I was still laughing and said to him..."I have a heart disease. Already many years...it cannot be healed. I have chronics love disease....ha,ha,ha...." She was laughing.....

Yoga

Since I maintain this blog together with my wife, please allow me to share her thought to all of you. Enjoy the reading......(PS : my wife is talkative too, but not so much as me...)

We live in the apartment complex which equipped with sport facilities like swimming pool, basketball court, football court, jogging track, gym and also aerobic class. Before, I never had an interest to join the aerobic class since the moves are to fast for me. Until we met one couple in one morning and they invite us to join the Yoga class.

Actually it was fun for me because it use our full energy with slow moves. The trainer said that we should not feel pain in our body when we move and don't over push. Just concentrate to your breath - inhale and exhale.

My sister was laughing when I told her that I joined Yoga class. In her young mind, the moves are too slow! But she knew that my body is flexible since I dance traditional dancing when I was child.

I join Yoga class three times a week for one hour each day. As a beginner, I can say that Yoga taught me how to breath, how to concentrate, how to be flexible, how to have positive thinking and of course to be healthy.

In this modern time, because of the stress in the office or because of family problem, we forgot to breath. I mean, really deep breath. We forgot how to listen to our body. Too much complicated things and pressures at the same time. Our mind and our acts must always be quick. And the result, our heartbeat become faster and we cannot concentrate to the things that we do.

The most important move in Yoga is to breath. When you breath and listen to your breath, you can have the flexibility to create some "strange moves" that we could not imagine we can do it before. Your mind also become peaceful and this is very good as our mind can invite positive energy in many ways.

Yoga also taught me to heal myself. For many years, I am suffered from menstrual pain and now I feel that bit by bit the pain is getting less and less.

If I may suggest, it is worth to try Yoga. Of course you must enjoy it. Because everybody are unique and can find their unique way to be healthy.

At the time being, Mario still have a little bit problem with the instruction from our trainer since she use my language. So, sometimes he made mistakes in some moves. But it doesn't matter, it has to be fun isn't it? :-)

Anita

Our Anniversary

My wife just erase my ended draft by mistake....I love her. It is our life. I said to her, "Don't worry I will write it again." It will be different with the first one. I will try to remember some parts of it.

Today is our wedding anniversary. It is a happy moment. The most precious moment in my life and no computer can erase this away from us. She just came to me and gave me a kiss. Save it...It is already saved in my mind. Our life is full. Beautiful and precious. Sometimes we have worries too...who does not. But not today. Today is a special day for us. I must say I am lucky. I create my life with her. Day by day, yes sometimes she erase something....and I create mess too. But we are together. I know many faces of my wife. How she smile, walk, cry. I personally like to see her sleep. She is so beautiful and warm. She said, "Don't make it too long, you are so talkative (that was before she erase it).

I must say I love our life...our little things that are so unimportant to others. My coffee cup, tea with milk and ginger for her. Little things that make our life ours. I am happy for this time...many lovers didn't have much time to express love and appreciation to each other. So many sad stories. My grandma and grandpa had only four years before the wind of change drift them apart. It was second world war and they never found each other again.

So for that reason I wish to share my story. So you can remember your happy moments that makes your life also so special and unique. Your memories can make you warm. You can drift away in the time and place. Memories don't have structure, they just flow. Come and go. Children smiles. First kiss..

We must work day by day to increase our life and our relationship. Sometimes it is hard. But I tell you I am not alone in time of my life. She is holding my hand. I hold to her like she holds me too. We are together. We love us. It is beautiful...it makes us become us.

Think about it. What makes you yours. To love someone.....