Thursday, July 29, 2010

Zakaria asked Miriam

Today I talked to a friend. He runs a small restaurant. He said that his workers steal from the restaurant. I listened and asked where the money for this business come from. He didn't say directly but between the words I heard that his boss is not an honourable man. I was laughing inside...how can he expected something that is stolen can attract decent honest people. Usually it attracks stealers too.

But this is not the topic that I am thinking about for some time now. I am thinking about a woman. Her role in humanity, history and why is the position of the woman still so difficult all over the world. I read many things and stories  about woman are usually very beautiful, full of knowledge and wisdom. For example Maya, mama of Budha and Miriam, mama of Jesus, in this special stories fathers are not mentioned much. They are just side actors.

Sometimes I asked myself are we man just a sperm donors? Maybe. And why man are so afraid of woman that woman must be controlled at all times by the man? They said that God created man first and then the woman...so I think that the woman is simply more advanced human being, because God probably improved some things at his second creation....or not?

In my humble opinion woman must be suppressed by the man because of his fear. It is unjust. In my opinion woman does not need a man...she is pure and always connected with goodness and beauty, with good guidence and  love from God. Why? Because she can give life. We man don't. She can decide about life. We man don't. For that reason she is more connected with miracle of life. She is in direct link to the creation of God. To us, to the souls of unborn babies, to the future.

They are just more powerful than man. Man is just a side actor. But he doesn't wish to be...so he created the society of man based on, usually force. To protect himself...his way of life. He is in reality, inferior in life but his power must be protected at any cost. Usually on the cost of the woman and children.

In my society there are more and more single woman, more and more single mamas..I think that is good. Humanity don't need side actor any more.... I am a man and I know many will be angry about this work of mine. Especially man...woman will just read it  and smile in her knowledge of life...that we man don't have a door in anymore for so long. Why? Because we created a society of man that is not the society of love, knowledge and children like woman do. So we are not invited into the house of the woman anymore..

There is one story in a very old book. Zakaria asked Miriam..."Where did you get all the clothes and food?" She just looked at him and said, "From God.... if he wish to give then  he can give without problems...." But to whom? To the woman. We man, and Zakaria had to struggle to be worthy of God's blessing.

Many will argue that Eve seduced Adam. I don't think so. No one can seduce anyone without his approval. And if it was meant to be? Eve just did what was needed to be done. So how deep is your fall oh Adam??? You fall the test and woman is punished? For centuries....because it was your fault? So how deep is your fall oh Adam that woman is still suffering. I think she just did what was meant to be and it was  a part of God's plan to test you oh Adam..

I am a man, so in a way I am connected with all the man that lived before me and if the story is correct, I am connected with Adam too..I am carrying your fault and I don't wish to be part of it anymore...I don't wish to be a part of this modern man, ignorant, selfcentred, superpower ego...who see just him and his wishes and lust....and teach the woman to be the same. If she  wish to survive in the man's society, she must be a man. So she is more and more a man and we man, fear that kind of woman too. The one who plays the game like a man and of course, she is winning....she is dominating the man's world. The biggest fear of all for a man...Will the man loose his beloved society of man?...Of course..he is more and more just a side actor...so for that reason his blindness and fear that generate so much injustice to the woman is more and more strong....So how deep is your fall oh Adam??? What kind of love is that oh Adam? To the woman and God that give you SHE? To lead you...

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Destiny

Today I am happy.  Today my  project starts. It is a birth that I have waited almost two years. Today is the day that will reshape my whole life. I cannot stop it and I also don't wish to. I was thinking about this moment for many months, days and years. Big battles were fight.

And now is here. I think about my past. What all I have done to achieve this. The time will show if it is good or not. I hope for the best. I am happy that it is over. That I achieve it. It was not and never easy. I had to fight hard against myself to believe in me. Against society,  family. Many battles, small and big ones. Like life is.

My wife helped me much and without her I will not make it. So I am very grateful for the love and passion that she gave me. I like her simple truth. Don't  worry...God can open many hearts... It is your destiny to do it...I know. I know that well. My destiny...I follow it. It is not an easy way.

To follow the inner truth and light is very lonesome way. It is definitely not something for weak people. Many times it is also scarry and dark way. It is the only way...that way, so I cannot back away or flee from my own destiny. I must go through it. It is so simple truth. It is not easy to trust the uncertainty. It is against any logical concept. To trust your heart and God is not the way we were taught in school. It is not modern and is sadly forgotten. We live based on logical concepts of modern science. Not on some illogical things that cannot be proven in laboratories.

I also know why is it so...because we are afraid. We don't have knowledge anymore about inner truth of us. It is forgotten....the real purposes of life. I know that we human are born every single day. That babies have their destiny. It is normal and a fact of life. Many will be blessed with many talents that I cannot even imagine. They will see and feel the life in our future.

Babies are the proof that there is something more in us....a soul. They come into the world....to learn. Like I was...or you or my wife? We never think about it much. We are too busy with other important things, like job, security, states. I know that I am much more than just biological truth of DNA. I have  personality...unique one. Like everybody of us. Genius will be born, musician, artist...They always come into the world...

Destiny...it is the word that we like to use, especialy if we don't understand. We don't understand so many things. I use another word. God. It is still here..... In us and around us.